Distracted by shiny things

Revision has officially killed me ded.

Seriously. I am actually looking forward to starting school tomorrow, as will do less work then. This really should serve as a lesson that not doing any work during term time and then learning it all in a week is a bad idea. Then again it won't change anything, sadly I am unable to concentrate when it comes to maths. I just don't like it. At all. And now I have to get an A in it. And it is just so damn hard. To say that the only thing that amused me today was "sec x" in the triginometry chapter would be sadly true. I will now stop whining about this, because it is not fair on anybody.

In other news I told my brother today about slash. To be more precise I told him to google Harry Potter and slash to find out what it is. He did. He took it surprisingly well, but I don't think he will ever mention it to me again. But I forced him to take a quiz on which Harry Potter slash pairing are you? and he got Harry/Voldemort. Was much amused. He tried again and he got Draco/Lucius, that disturbed him quite a bit judging by the expression. :)

I received an email to remind me that the deadline for a fic challenge I'd signed up for and completely forgotten about is on the 15th. In my excuse I signed up and didn't get anything until today, so I wasn't even sure what was happening. I don't think I have any time at all.

And last but sertainly not least I got my card from remipunx today. It is really nice! Thank you soo much! :D :D

I am going to sleep now, I need my brain sleep.

anna_bonita drew me fanart! It is Harry in a Santa hat and he is all mine and yummy and I have it here because she has no scanner. But see it and tell her how pretty Harry is! It is all traditionally drawn with pencils too! ETA GIP!

( Harry Potter )

In other news, The Half Blood Prince will be out on July 16th and this makes me happy because I want to read it very much but at the same time it is just too soon,(It means the end is near and I don't want it to end!) I need to read OoTP again.

Today went incredibly fast and I didn't do anything, this is bad as although it it still fairly early in the holiday I need to catch up with homework and reading and tons of things.

But never mind *waves to new friends from mctabby's friending frenzy*  How are you all doing?

As some of you know I am meant to be writing a fic a day as a sort of practise forn nanowrimo, which at the moment is a grant total of fic and a drabble. And for today I promised I will have more, which I do, but it's not as long as I would have liked. It will however have a second part posted tomorrow.

( The things we do. eventually H/S, for now PG. )

So I had an interview yesterday morning and I got a call yesterday afternoon to tell me I got the job! So I finally, definitely HAVE A JOB! My first job ever, and yes it is temporary christmas work, but they often let their temps stay on and who cares anyway as I have a job. It is in John Lewis, sales asistant and it starts on Sunday. The pay is not bad either. I also helped my friend find the perfect place to live, it wil be barely affordable, but new and big and close to her work and she signed a contract straight away, after seeing just one place. Considering she started considering moving out on tuesday, it was a bit quick, so I hope she doesn't regret it.

I also have a fic today. It is a trio fic, I should have posted at least a week ago, but haven't. So here it is now.

( A Difficult Choice, R )

I HAVE A JOB!

Also I tried to write a drabble, the art of drabbles has always been beyond me, as I tend to start with the intension of writing one and I end up with anything from 400 to a 1000 words. That is why I really admire people that manage to put so much into mere 100 words. Well this was a bit more than 300, but I cut it down to 200, and think a double drabble is better than nothing. Next time it might even be a 100 words.

*****

Harry/Draco, 200 words

I look around and all I can see is darkness. It engulfs me, and you, and makes what we are doing more bearable, easier to live with. For we are doing something so completely unlikely that it’s almost surreal, it is that and the darkness that are the real, the only reason I am continuing with this. For shagging you, Potter is definitely not on my to do list for this year. And it certainly has nothing to do with that adorable blush on your cheeks even after so many times, no, absolutely nothing to do with that. I would be completely appalled if you suggest it has anything to do with your legs willingly spread below me, or the way your hard cock feels in my mouth, that little moan you do when I bite a certain spot on your neck. This is all irrelevant and passable and there is no need to tell me any of it. And your silence isn’t helping either, the darkness around us is so thick, and yet, it reveals more than it conceals. It isn’t enough to make me think you are still here, for the silence is too much. You weren’t silent.

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( Cut for RL stuff that could get confusing and/or boring )

Today was very busy, but very nice too. Had to wash hair and get ready for interview, got there (only had to phone my friend who works there and is the reason I'm getting the job, once, but then she decided to come out and meet me) Had interview, which basically consisted of the boss (no idea what her name was, but she was very nice) talking to me and me smiling and nodding and trying desperately to fit a word in, so she can see that I can in fact speak. Then time to go home (received a lift on the way there) by a bus. Which was easier said than done, as I had to find the bus station first (asked only 2 people, felt proud) then which bus I need, (more difficult as none of the people asked had a clue) Spnd bus jouney ,ressed in a suit and feeling incredibly out of place, n the phone with people I couldn't really hear due to bus noises. Got off at the local district centre, (15 mins away from house) went to a friend's house, then walked to my house so that I could change out of suit and shoes from hell (which I realised about then, because walking = bad). atempted to not curse brother who had the last hayfever medecine, resulting in my constant sneezing and eyes turning the same lovely shade as Voldemort's. Got home changed, decided to leave again, go to local pub and eat something, as to not faint from lack of food. Then had to run home and start cleaning the house as parents decided to invite people over to watch the match, had about 20 mins to hoover and clean, also expexted Ani to come over. Glad you called and changed your mind, as otherwise I might not have finished. Then help with cooking and and finally some time on internet where I am writing this and listening to incredibly disgruntled match viewers next door (and by that I mean shouts, swears and mayhem, which I am unable to understand, as afterall it is only a game, and not a terribly interesting one either)

*Pokes head out* Hello! So in a futile attempt to actually do better in my remaining 10 exams I will really, definitely, totally not go on line for a couple of weeks. I hope I can do this as I suffer from the unfortunate addiction that simply prevents me from only coming here for under an hour, and it is so easy to forget about maths when you can read the many interesting things people have to say about the PoA world premiere. And believe me there were a lot who attended this, uh minor event, and not only those who were there outside (which sounds awesome too) but I've read about 15 accounts of people who were actually there, and some at the after party too and then there were pictures and it seems really amazing. There wasn't even one not completely positive review and from the looks of it this will be an incredible film that I am going to see on Monday! Yay!!

So I know everything, have never spoiled myself that much, but it doesn't really matter because I'm so excited now. By the way anna_bonita, are you sure we don't have to book tickets, if they are sold out or something I will have to die. And that would be rather unfortunate just before the exams.

I will be checking my email, so angeline_dark, any new chapers will be read and I will probably even have time to beta them.

This is all because I am silly and if I waste my time nothing will come out of the exams, and I know that with a bit of revising I can actually do very well. So, am turning laptop off and hiding it so thetemptation will be far away.

In compensation I will probably be back with a lot of fic as ideas are many right now. I even slightly frightened myself when, sow a perfect way of slashing Carl and Kabuo, two characters in Snow Falling on Cedars, one of my books for English, it is a truly astounding book that I love reading and had to force myself to not write this. It was suprisingly difficult, considering Kabuo is on trial for Carl's murder, and they were both happily married, (well in Carl's case before he died, oh and Kabuo was innocent). But appart from that it coul so work! (Don't judge me, for I blame it all on algebra)

( The best meme ever!!!1! )

If anyone is interested that spell with Hermione was working, but then Dumbledore turned up and let me tell you, not pretty. So he had one of his trademark talks with me, even gave me a lemon drop and I felt bad about writing things for Hermione by manipulating everyone else and me and Dumbledore made a deal, I will revise like a good girl and then he'll let me play with them when I'm back. So I couldn't really decline that offer. *g*

Au revoir!

So, so busy lately. Had to get up at 5:30 yesterday morning in order to revise maths. Got to bed after one, and was up at seven today. So, you know attempting to survive on air is not all it's cracked up to be. Also, not learning things (believe it or not, I just typed 'thongs', instead of 'things', clearly caused by a brain overload) during the year may not be my brightest idea. I guess it was fun while it lasted, but I rather feel like the grasshopper right now and being the ant has its appeal. (Ignore crazy ramblings, at least I am not discussing vectors or the theory of conservation of momentum) Well it will be all over this time tomorrow, so at least I will get it over with. Which will leave me with exactly two weeks to study for my remaining 10 exams. Fun, considering there is another maths which is about twice as hard as this one. Also I am so easily distracted and random fic ideas seem to constantly haunt me, which is a bit frustrating, as they never seem to appear when I have time to write. So I can only jot down the main plot and hope I can actually write it later. Well at least I have one good thing to wait for, the whole week after exams, where I will have no responsibilities and go out and write. Oh, and read, there are so many amazing fics I am behind on, definitely need to catch up. ( So, during my frequent periods of procrastination I wrote something extremely silly, approach with caution, Oh scrap that, I am extremely proud of this piece of pure genious, and I want to thank my computer, my maths teacher, various other little and insignificent people without whose help, this would never be possible, *sob* Yes, yes the world peace thing too. )

I am going now to another impossible maths question, however am making no promisses regarding future rediculous posts. I need to put my nervousness somewhere. Yes, I am aware that all of you sincerely wish I would *study, for god's sake!* But I am trying, honestly. Also, I am begging for all the luck you can spare, will need it. Will really need it.

Greetings! I have been thinking quite a lot recently on the subject of smut in fandom, it is certainly popular, one has to only look at the communities like pornish_pixies and the hundreds of people that are listed as watchers. For the sake of the argument I will only talk about slash and the Harry Potter fandom, because I know more about these, not that I know that much, but still.

( On reading it )

( On writing it )

And a poll. Because I can! Yay! Please fill it, freshly baked cookies for all participants.

Trading cards soo cool. I want to see this film so badly, actually wasn't very excited but some of those pictures! *pets* Really like how Harry is growing up, just mentioning this as an entirely observational remark. Ron too, which is odd, since I've never been a big fan of Rupert, but he is very cute, admittedly his hair not so much red as blond. Yet, I would feel petty complaining about his hair, since it is Hermione's complete lack of bushiness and Draco's whatever happened to his that annoy me. Just a bit. You know. Not complaining. Much. Apart from that very excited, love teh Harry and Ron and Hermione. And oh my good Pancy, I thought she isn't supposed to be pretty, I guess pug faced can be interpreted in different ways. Ok, just one more tiny complaint, it's the last, I promise, I reallydontlikeNeville, I am sorry, it's just he was so cute and ickle, and now he is all teenage and bigteethed, amsoshallow *hides*. Still can't make my mind up about Tom Felton, he is very yummy on some pictures, but I can't learn to love the hair, have tried though. Honestly. As Harry/Hermione is my canon ship love this. 

Apart from that I am a really awful, lazy, stupid person who wastes her time and does everything within her powers to completely avoid doing any revision. It is bad, since exams so soon and I really need to study, so I don't fail. Also did a maths mock, got 32%, and it's horrible. I didn't actually revise for it and I still have two weeks to learn everything which is possible since I did it in January for the other module, but very very difficult, demanding etc. But I can do it, I am certain, apart from maths, everything else will be ok, I thinkhope. English I know, media I know pretty well, Politics will be fine, Economics still have time to revise for. But I *need*to start nowlast month. Only, I am lazy and everything was so easy for me before, am kind of used to breezing through test. Now, not so much. Wah! Why do I keep wasting my time.

I will start my *official* revising tomorrow, which means taking time off LJ which seems to be proving very difficult. But I WILL! I have to, and my will power is strong, I will resist allexcept temptation. Why do I have to be so easily addicted? The odd thing is that everytime I try revising my hand starts itching and I have to write something. I have an evil hand. Uh...ok, am going now. Honestly!

Aja’s recent posts have made me think, and I realised I had a lot to say, and decided to post it in my journal, instead of anonymously in  ontheside / wayfairer  not that anyone would read it here, but I felt like sharing.