Distracted by shiny things

So, we are in the dawn of a new beginning, I am terrified and excited and hopeful that despite all it will be okay, it has to be! Yeah, you guessed it, tomorrow I have to do my first presentation at the LSE in front of a group of super smart, but hopefully sleep deprived people. Oh yeah there is the US election too...

I can't concentrate and have done no work at all, instead reading all types of election-related news, and keep thinking I will be staying up anyway, so can do my presentation then. So no fun election party for me, but hopefully a celebration tomorrow! I looked at my post from four years ago, it was half way through the next day that the result was announced, so I sort of can't help but expect a similar thing, but I am also cautiously optimistic, because things are looking pretty okay, are they not? But then again I have never met a Republican, all the Americans at the LSE (and there are a lot here) I know are Democrats, and same goes for everyone else I know, so I have never actually spoken to a McCain supporter. Add to this, where I choose to get my news from, and you get a very nice, liberal sheltered picture. So my glimpse into conservative America has been formed by trollish comments left on blogs or youtube, and thus seem almost unreal in their craziness. But these people are very real and in their millions, which is scary. Similarly it is all good to laugh at Palin on SNL or even feel sorry for her after the prank, but the possibility of her actually being VP is all kinds of awful, I was reading an article on the Bush doctrine and its consequences the other day and it is terrifying to think that she didn't know what it was. Among many, many other things of course, but as someone who is currently studying international relations and is very much aware of the impact the US has on pretty much everything, I can't help but worry. This election matters. It matters not only for Americans but for the rest of the world, and I really wish I could do something more than fervently hope the right choice is made.

GO OBAMA!

FINALLY watched the History Boys.

OMG! Why didn't anyone tell me how awesome it was? Well...you all did, but OH GOD should have listened.

Want to see the play, read it at least, wow, it was just so BEAUTIFUL and wonderful and so much love. LOVE. It was so clever and funny and sad and GAY (people said it was gay, but I didn't think it would actually be SO gay.) and despite everything, Real. Somehow. I LOVE THEM ALL. I wish I know any of their names, also fic, there must be fic. Is there fic? I can't find any, ending was PAIN :( I wanted to imagine happy futures for all, why were we told things? :(

Am supposedly writing an essay about Democracy, so should do that, but all I want to do is write read fic! :(

Yay for Americal election results! Is the Senate 50-50 or 49-51? Different sites are telling me different things. So confused.

Democracy, democracy.......yes

Wednesday of week 1 and already close to a nervous breakdown? Oh Oxford how much did I miss thee!

I am doomed, utterly doomed.

‘Should political theory be thought of as the theory of the justification of state coercion of individuals?’

I don't know what to say to you. Okay?

In other news there are indeed many other news I tried to update earlier and LJ ate my entry so I will try again later. Thursday evening when I am either done with the essay or dead.

Love to all. It has been too long

I am so BORED!

I am supposed to be writing an essay, I *am* writing an essay but I am so bored of it that I am doing everything possible in order to avoid it, mainly eating but also checking my email a million times. I was good this time, spend all day yesterday in various libraries doing all the necessary reading, have way too many pages of notes, some are even relevant, and know exactly what each paragraph will consists of.

This is a problem. I know so much that writing it up bores me to tears. I don't understand how people work with plans, especially when it comes to creative writing, how the hell do you do a detailed plan and are then interested enough to carry on?

It must be a gift that I will never possess, and it's been so long sinse I have actually written anything (creative, not essays unfortunately).

I guess I should add something constructive seeing as I am updating and all...

Um.

• I didn't get a ticket for the Snow Ball and I really wanted to go. :(
• I have so much work for the next couple of days I suspect I won't get to do any of the fun things I want to do. 
• We have a Pink! Bop on Friday and money will go to Breast Cancer research, it's at the same time as Tolkien soc's Fireworks party, the HP soc's Halloween Feast and a film I want to see. Decisions are evil and should die.
  
• I survived my first economics tutorial and even somehow did well on my essay, even if my graph was completely different form other people's it was apparently correct.
• I had a half seven Fire Drill yesterday morning and thought it was 2 o'clock and panicked and left my key in my room, thankfully after checking they'd left the door open.
• I should go back to my essay now even though I want to have ice cream and possibly pizza instead.
• I have tried to catch up with flist but if you think I have missed anything crucial please link me.
• I have no bread but I do have cheese and biscuits.
  
• I want to do something but lack the courage to do it.
• I feel so restless and full of pent up energy but can't afford the time wasted of going to Yoga, should not have updated.
  

"Who should I vote for" with rather shocking results. *cries* There is something very wrong with this. ( Read more... )

In better news UL20 was probably my absolute favourite so far. So much love, so much.

Arghhh! I just typed up a loong entry about my night out and the oddest dream ever. And it was a good post too and my dream was long and detailed and I wanted to remember it dammit! I hate it when LJ eats my posts, but this time it is entirely my fault. Because I wanted to save it just in case it doesn't post, so I highlighted it all and pressed paste!!! Yes, paste, and in the place of my entry tere was a fic I recently wrote. I am angry also stupid.

But I am now amused, because I received a letter. A survey from my constituency's Conservative Candidate! hahahaha. Like I would ever vote for him. At least I now know his name, whats with men named Iain being Conseravitive, it's an odd name too. Still. So amused. I haven't got any other pre-election mail. Unimpressed, Labour, unimpressed. I think I will fill the survey, they even included an envelope. How thoughtful.

Right, I haven’t been around all that much this past week, for a couple of reasons. One, work and school means no time left for me at all. And when I have time I don’t like going on lj because it is either political posts or nano updates. Both of these depress me. And that doesn’t mean I don’t like them, or you shouldn’t post them, but they still depress me. Seeing how much everybody has written makes me feel like I will never do it, because I’ve had pretty much no time at all and it will only get worse. And the political posts are so interesting I find myself following links and reading articles and then the time flies, but they are good, and useful, as I have to write an essay with the lovely title: Account for the result of the US presidential election. Wah! I can’t do it! I don’t know why it happened!

Despite what I’ve just said I signed up for yuletide, and I think I can do it. It was simply too good to resist, I was a bit disappointed that two of the things I wanted were not on the list, but the things I requested are pretty good too. I just hope somebody writes me Othello slash, for the world needs it, or failing that 1984. I have so much love for that book and actually have written some fic for it right after finishing it, but there is so much to explore with the ideas that somebody has to write it. My third request is of course Murder by Numbers, as that always needs more fics. I don’t remember what I offered to write but I can’t wait to get my assignment.

5,535 / 50,000 (11.0%)

Yes I hate seeing other people’s nano word counts but mine will not depress anyone only make them sneer in contempt.

 

The drabbles are not forgotten, I have written one and will do the rest very soon.