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[katia]

Bye Everybody! :)

I am going the Atlanta tomorrow morning. Early morning, will leave at 4am. This means a very early night for me. I will be gone for over two weeks. Very excited, despite the too long plane journey. Longest I've ever been on, since I've never left Europe before, and am a little bit nervous. But everything is packed, including my maths book and notebooks which will hopefully be full of writing and I will be able to come back bearing fics.

I wish you all Happy Easter and lots of excitement (or not, depending on what you want)  for those of you that also have a holiday!

I will be reachable by email, I doubt anyone will write to me, but I adore emails. Yes, that was a not so subtle hint ;) I will try to update LJ too, but I am not sure that I will, and it won't be often if I do. I changed my mind about bringing my laptop with me, it's not really a wise idea and I don't want anything to happen to it.

Today was great, I didn't go to school, even though I should have, but it was a half day and pointless. Instead I was supposed to do all my holiday homework, as we are coming back on the Sunday before school starts. That didn't happen. I watched music channels on TV and went online instead. Then I went to see Hitch, which was actually really cute. I went (was dragged along by friends) with no expectations and was pleasantly surprised to find it very fresh and very funny. I love Will Smith and he was great in it. Not the most realistic film, I mean I don't think I am that shallow but, well I don't want to spoil the film. Go see it, it really is fun.

Anyway, my point was that I wasted my day in productive terms and will despite bringing my maths book with me undoubtedly not spend the longest time revising whilst I am there. This means only 6 weeks before P3 after I come back. At the current time my P3 knowledge is approximately none, really really none. I don't pay attention in lessons, I don't do any questions at home. I do nothing. Thus it really isn't surprising that I get not the best of results and I need that fucking A in maths and I am damn scared that I won't get it. And if I don't it will be all my fault, and I won't have anyone to blame but me and I hate my lack of motivation and the constant lying. Because I lie to muself all the time, I convince myself I will do work and I never do it. After P2 I told myself I will change and learn P3 as I go along and not a week before the exam. And I have changed nothing. It is a miracle I don't fail completely. This part of the post should include my usual pleas about changing, but what is the point as I probably won't. I have to and I know I do. I really hope the necessity will be enough motivation. :(

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[kuteki.livejournal.com]

Hehe, no need to be jealous, it rained all day today and we have tornado warnings, tomorrow it will rain again. That is why we will be going shopping...