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well then
Hello. It's been ages since I've properly updated this thing. At first I wasn't around, well not for long anyway. In the last few days I have been around, only sort of hiding. I am not really sure why. I feel a bit detached I suppose, which doesn't make sense because I have gone back to reading fic and actually followed a rec or two, which I hardly ever do. I guess I feel detached from my flist, I do read it, but don't often comment and I feel like I am losing touch with people. I want this to change, but I know that I have weeks and weeks of exams and that really isn't an option. There certainly is no time at all for procrastination, what with the maths in a week and a half. (speaking about the maths, I am feeling vaguely more confident about getting an A. Passed mock, which is a good start, just for reference I have never passed a maths mock before. Not once.) Maybe some part of me is afraid of rejection. Maybe I simply don't feel like talking. (Which once again is very odd for me, I hardly ever shut up as anyone that knows me at all can testify)
I guess I want to say that I miss you guys, but it would seem strange as many of you don't even really know who I am.
And wow, this was actually going to be a post about, well...stuff. I was going to make a looong post yesterday with real life in it as well as my amusement/anger/exasperation with certain characters/tv shows. But then I got distracted and I read a long fic. It was not very good actually, but it was entertaining nonetheless.
Good news is that I actually wrote some things. Something I have not done in the longest time. It felt nice. Freeing and fun. One is Seth centric, the other a sort of exploration into something I may adapt to make a part of a fic I was thinking about writing a long time ago.
In 10 minutes I am off to watch Scrubs, this too makes me happy. When I return I will possibly be back to normal, or at least the usual and maybe even write something real and tangible. I like the word tangible. It is one of my favourite words. I think that is why I used it even though it doesn't really fit in this context.
ETA ! Not fair. Not watching Scrubs now, as parents are watching something instead. This has pissed me off, as I was really looking forward to it. Well, I will watch it at 10, but that is not the point, the point is that I wanted to watch it now. If that doesn't make me sound like a petulant child, I don't know what does. Who cares anyway. I will watch CSI instead, because I promised.
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Also this post is silly and I will add a cut tag to hide it behind.
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I miss you, but exams are so important, that I am dealing with it, just thinking, Katia will get to go to the school of her dreams if she just keeps her butt studying. And the offer of help still stands. Rich is a geek, and likes to help with math studying.
Harry misses Hermione, he has more to talk to her about, and well, he wants to kiss her again. I am just moving on as if Snaped chased them out of the room and that was it.
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I miss you too, but there is just no time at all for me to be online. And I was going to assume that same thing, I think I will update her journal privately and then owl Harry because they didn't manage to finish their conversation. What do you think? Also, I saw a pic of Natalie Portman and she looks quite perfect for Hermione. I am thinking of changing to her at some point (when I have time etc) Not sure though. Good/bad idea?