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So I was sitting in Shakespeare's head in Holborn with a couple of friends, a pub I have been in many, many times, I was trying to cheer my friend up because her laptop was stolen at King's Cross a few days ago and she has exams in three weeks, and then I said, we should all be careful, let me just check my laptop is still here and upon looking under the table discovered that in fact it was gone! GONE! MY BEAUTIFUL LAPTOP AND worst of all EVERYTHING ON IT, ALL MY NOTES, ALL OF THEM! (And photos and music and films and fic and EVERYTHING!) You see TWO days ago the memory stick on which I had saved everything was acting really weird, saying it was full when it wasn't and I needed to transfer some photos and DELETED everything from it and hadn't got round to re-saving it. TWO days ago, I deleted my back up,. I am so so stupid. Also screwed. This is possibly my worst nightmare, to revise for exams with no notes. It's like the year is gone.

There was CCTV footage of the guy taking it, but his face was hidden, so nothing could be done, of course.

Then I was really upset, only to get to Euston and find out that I have to wait for a train for over an hour!! As opposed to the usual at most 10 minutes wait. And then I cried like a crazy person in the middle of the station.
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So the whole business with commuting would be absolutely fine if I was capable of doing any work at home, unfortunately that is not the case.  I am not even sure why I am updating, I think I ran out of all other available means of procrastination and can't bring myself to go back to reading 'A Social Theory of International Relations', for the incomprehensibility of which my lecturer actually apologised today.

I guess the real reason is that I need advice. It has been ages since I have really liked someone and even longer since I've pursued anyone, so I don't know what to do! The person that I like is someone I have become friends with over the last couple of weeks, so normal ways of asking someone out are not clear enough, like we have had coffee, lunch and drinks on numerous occasions (coffee and lunch just the two of us, he paid for coffee 1, I paid for coffee 2,) I don't know if he likes me like that, and I am pretty sure he has no idea how I feel, because my extreme fear of rejection means that I act in a completely nonchalant way, but he definitely likes me enough to spend many hours talking to me and leaving his house to have lunch with me. He also dresses like Ryan Atwood: grey hoodie and a leather jacket. (Sorry, if you don't watch the OC!) Yeah that's not relevant, but it is sort of awesome.

So I need to do something fairly soon, because it led me to spend about half an hour in the library today staring into space, and it will be harder once we become too good friends, you know? The question is what do I do? Someone on my course is having a party on Saturday and I am thinking the solution maybe to get drunk and try to kiss him, but I do see many a problems with this plan.

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Wednesday of week 1 and already close to a nervous breakdown? Oh Oxford how much did I miss thee!

I am doomed, utterly doomed.

‘Should political theory be thought of as the theory of the justification of state coercion of individuals?’

I don't know what to say to you. Okay?

In other news there are indeed many other news I tried to update earlier and LJ ate my entry so I will try again later. Thursday evening when I am either done with the essay or dead.

Love to all. It has been too long


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May 2009



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